Letting Go

Letting go is one of the hardest things for me to do.

But I think the time for letting go is almost here.

We don't talk like we use to.

Conversation is always strained and repetitive.

You don't treat me like your favorite girl anymore, not even close.

I know I was always your first priority, but now I've become your last.

You tell me you still love me, but I can hear it in your voice that you don't.

It breaks my heart to think that we're growing apart, instead of growing closer.

You said we need to talk, and it made me feel even worse.

I know its been hard since I've been away, but you've always meant the world to me.

I just want you to hold me like you use to, and wipe away my tears.

I want you to kiss me at every red light we stop at, just like you use to.

You don't give me that look like you always did.

The one that secretly said, "I love you."

I miss how you always use to call me, just to ask how my day was going.

And I miss how you made me happy. 

I loved that we could talk for hours and it would never get old.

Now we fight for a scrap of conversation.

I hate that your words are careless.

I hate that I've been demoted.

You tell me you miss me, but you never ever visit.

Sometimes I wish we could start all over.

Or go back to how things use to be.

But I know things will never be the same between us.
I always wonder what I will do without you.
Sometimes I wish I never have to find out.

But I know the time is coming closer when I'm going to have to let you go.

It hurts to think about it.

Because you've always been my best friend.

But strangely I feel okay about it.

I feel like it might just be the right thing to do, even though it hurts.

I know its going to be hard, and it will break my heart.

But always know that I will love you. and you'll always be my best friend.

-McLovin'

That Awkward Moment...

You know that awkward moment when you're the third wheel? Well actually the fifth wheel? Yeah...that's me right now. It has become too awkward for me. So I choose to blog. I hate being the third/fifth wheel. Everyone is always too wrapped up in everything else that you go completely unnoticed. It is definitely making me hate life right now. Sometimes I just want that one person. The one that will never leave me and will never let me feel left out. (my husband/best friend.) He would always be by my side and making me like the most important thing in the world. There are certain times where I need him more than others, and this is one of those special occasions where I am dying for him to be here. (Honey, please know that I am missing you.)

I just need to remember that one day there will be that person that will come along and he won't over look me. I will be the first person he notices. I just need to hold on for that day. Please don't be too far away.

-McLovin'

This Month's Goal

Today I thought I'd start out with a quote:
                                                 

This quote by Nobel Peace Price winner, Nelson Mandela, was the inspiration for my personal goal this month:  To stop comparing my accomplishments and downfalls with other peoples' and come to the realization that I am trying my best to get everything I can out of life.  I think sometimes it's hard to have motivation to get work done when we are constantly measuring ourselves up to the achievements of those around us.  I know its a bit cliche' but its true.  Just set your own goals and work towards them, rather than taking on the aspirations of everyone around you.  This tactic will make life so much less overwhelming, and you will find that your efforts are much more focused.  You will be led to much greater succes!  

-Slave Dancer 215     

You Look Great! (I'm Lying)

Alrighty. First off. Lets all try to conserve energy by turning off lights. I know you all like to turn every light in the house on and just leave them. But ultimately I am paying for those lights to be on and it always adds up. And of course I'm a poor college student, so I don't have the money for you to stare at yourself in the mirror with the light on for 2 hours. Let's pretend like we care about the environment and "Go Green." I'm going green. That's why I'm wearing a green shirt. (i'm lying...i'm not really wearing a green shirt.) See? I was pretending. It's that simple.

Secondly. Hello all of you non existent readers. I know that hello should never take second priority, but it has. So deal with it. I'll apologize later.

Thirdly. I am McLovin' the cold weather. And I am being serious right now. I do love it. I just wanna go roll around in the snow a bit at night. There is something about snow that seems so...serene. I love driving around at night to just look at everything covered in snow. It's a weird hobby of mine. So there is a fun fact for all of your readers. One uncovered, a million to go! Peace Out Scout!

-McLovin'

Little Rants

"It's very easy to live here. You're anonymous here. Nobody knows who you are."

                                                                - Walter Matthau



So welcome to The Nameless Scribe. You may be asking yourself why anyone would want to be nameless? Well, have you ever had that moment in life where you wanted to say everything and anything that was on your mind, but couldn't? You held yourself back for the sake of those around you, and to protect others' perceptions of you. All you wanted to do was become anonymous so you could release that one built up thought. This blog is our chance to become anonymous and let our fingers do all the typing. So enjoy our unfiltered little rants.

-McLovin' and Slave Dancer 215